I Know We'll Always Be Able to Make It

"Someday you'll realize it's not enough to know or to think that the other half loves you. There will come a time where you'll need that person's presence more than an ideal make up excuse."
Complicated.
Things are always complicated. It's not just a state of mind over the things that happen to you. Things that are getting out of hand, getting out of control, getting beyond the limitations, and getting much worse than ever. Times like this, you need an explanation on why complicted things happen.
Confusion.
When things are complicated, it tends to be confusing on your part. You are stuck, and the worst of it is that you just don't know what to do. Sometimes, on the contrary, you know what to do, its the execution that makes it hard. You rely to advices. Got fed up in all the blah blah crazy things people will tell you. At the end, you're still alone again don't know what to do and the worst of it you'll find no cure.
Alibi.
Escape from the complicated things is your next move. And how do you do that? You think of stupid alibis. Everyone does it. It's a well known art since kindergarten. Some are pretty good in casting alibis - at the right time, at the right place and at the right person. If you've harnessed the spell well then you'll be safe for the mean time but if you're an apprentice... best of luck... you'll get caught in no time.
Divert.
If you think you're going to encore another alibi, here's another thing to do - divert. You tend to battle things out with your mind. And how do you do that? You think of silly activities you thought would make you escape from what's bugging you. That's great. It works until you find something which will make you remeber that complicated thing again. At the end of the day you lose the battle.
Outlet.
What a person really need in this paranoia is an outlet. The right outlet. It doesn't need to be a perfect one. Just go let it out. Ease the pain and chase the rain clouds away until they are nowhere to be found. I guess I need you...
Now I hope you would realize that I need your presence more than anything else. I'm not asking to give me your whole time, just a bit of it would do. Just make me feel I'm remembered by any means necessary. I know we're in a complicated situation, hope you wouldn't complicate things. I understand all of this, just don't make it too hard for me.
I know we'll always be able to make it.


2008.05.01